Christina: 12/16/19

Why I Quit College

I quit college in hopes people would stop being mean to me for failing.

LA

If you're looking at Hollywood, you're just looking at people who moved to L.A. and NYC.

Question

Why are fat/"obese" people so prejudiced?

Food

The ham and cabbage - gone within 24 hours.

I also said I didn't want ice cream, Blue Bell, almost gone!

This was Sunday.

Skipping a Generation

I wonder if people were excited to gloss over my generation and see what the next one could do.

What are we doing? Introverted life.

It looks like other kinds of people have settled down but not me, like forming Late Boomers through the years.

A Weird Way of Shuffling Everyone Around

Maybe Americans are weird, but does that mean in the mix Germans from Germany somehow came out on top? like with the authenticity of good classical music?

Other People

Some people matter to others, and some don't.

Crusaders for Christ

I understand Jesus started the idea of not being complacent, but growing up I was told I existed for a reason to help the poor in a way that interfered with my life... Get it?

Question

Do young German American boys join the army to gain social acceptance?

Practicing Racism

People try to be convincing that racism is the way to go.

School

I have the Spring and Summer 2020 before some music classes start. I was thinking of taking all 4 General Studies in the Spring but could do 3 and 1.

Update

I added my Pinterest to the side of this blog.

Discrimination - Nothing for Me

When people talk to me, they like to say everything is for others and not me because it's not fair if someone had it better than others, like behaved well and did their schoolwork, that everyone is the same thing and all need to start from scratch to beat me out of it completely. You get the point.

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Apple must have a lot of programs now.

I wanted it for school because some things don't work on Chromebook, and my Dell laptop is so slow, rather unreliable there. I e-mailed my dad about it.

Anyway, I like Apple because I might be able to use different programs someday. It looks good.

Apple

One review said a Mac Book Air is good for 1st time Mac users, so I got interested in getting an Apple computer, which has the option to pay off about $60/month. I could pay it off in several months, maybe.

Shopping

I'm thinking of getting a laptop next month, was gonna get a bunch of other things I need, like a sound machine, air purifier, laundry baskets ... for like $380 of $480 I have. I can also pay off a laptop monthly.

Basically Mixed Asians

if they aren't the 8th wonder of the world are considered not good enough and get abused and ugly. It's very easy to do. It could be done to others were it believed or there be a reason.

White Slaves

Black people tell white people to mistreat Asians.

Asian Holocaust

It's like the Holocaust against mixed Asians looking happy and white because they are part white and not all Asian.

The world is all hatred etc., to me.

No one ever focuses on what I say because they have some other excuse for thinking I'm bad.

Being a Musician?

Why wasn't I treated as well for being a good musician as an older lady I like, who seems to be saying our relationship could be dropped or seen as that way because she doesn't need me because she got so well-liked and famous for talking to me?

Mixed Asians

There is a split interest or disposition that white people mixed with Asian need to know they're not white. This would have been unacceptable when we were younger, of course, and I was ignored as shy, sneakily.

Black Racism

Blacks think they can be racist against Asians.

So...

I was going for film acting and didn't do anything just to get ready, duh.

Problems

I keep getting problems from across the US, like from old men that I said I wanted it to be fair my relationship so they took it away, people around my generation acting like I'm just in a game with my relationship with an older lady I like, like it's some sport I lost because they don't have it, their choice person of the Late Boom generation, as though they were stupid to think they could get any of them.

What happened?

I remember how fun it was before I went to theater classes in college it so happens.

First, I had the adventures of Tim Burton online.

Then, I dreamed it away with watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," too.

This was 2008-2013.

Update

I added a new blog to the side of this blog, Dreams.

L.O.L. Surprise! Doll

I'm going to repaint my L.O.L. Surprise Doll. I saw it online with other dolls.

Bug Bites

I must have at least 10 on my ankles. My dad said to spray Bactine on them to stop the itching. It worked.

Cough Drops

After eating ice cream, if water doesn't do it why not try a cough drop?

Reconstructing

We finally have food in the house, and I'm sleeping it off.

Plan

I'm trying to start out private violin, too, online there.

Plan

So, I should have an AA in Violin Performance hopefully by Spring 2021.

Plan

The Music AA doesn't require as many General Studies.

I'm enrolled in English Composition II and 3 religion classes.

Plan

I might graduate from a Baptist college in Florida online. It might only be until the summer, too.

The requirements aren't the same as other colleges, in general, it seems. For instance, it requires 4 religion classes and only 1 easy math class. Luckily, I've already taken one religion requirement at a Catholic college.

If I go on campus here, I have to take the bus.

I can get an AA in Music + a BA in music online here too.

I could try to take music classes now, but if I can do it I'm filled with General Studies requirements, not that I'd take the full load possible I mean though. I'm also enjoying teaching myself violin on my own for now until I get better. I don't know where I can get ahead in music in the summer, especially online or even at a local college / community college.

I'll probably take 4 classes this semester and maybe 3 in the summer. Then, I can get a diploma from that school.

Monday, December 16, 2019