Not Special but Different...

I may not be special, but I am different from most people, most people being weirdos.

Germans are amazing...

Wouldn't you expect Germans to be amazing, anyway, or is it some kind of way of bumping me out and for some reason not yourself?

Question

It's not embarrassing to "lose it" in front of others?

German Hostility in General

Germans must be more "wasted" than me with all their anger.

I'm just not...

I'm just not impressed with slip ups.  I wish I could elaborate, but the thought has escaped me.

"Getting Attention"

It feels like people give me attention a little so I don't get it a lot.

Being Mean or Lazy

You know when people are mean or lazy to you but nice to others just because they want to be mean or lazy but without reason to do it to you?

Church Today

Since I can't sleep (and need to go grocery shopping with my dad so I can settle and eat) I think I am going to a Calvary Baptist church and getting something to eat on the way.  I'm taking the bus.  I'm actually Catholic, but the churches here aren't serious.  I like the one where people who visit for Disney attend, but it's a long trip by bus, 4 buses too, and I get lost on the way back.  I ended up walking in front of the entrance to Disney World walking back to find a bus.

What's wrong with Europe?

Older people in the US trust me more than anything.  I'm considered in some ways very mature as an adult and other ways can enjoy being childlike.  (I don't have children; I am worried if I am not healthy enough etc. and can't support one or even have a life myself.)

It's like older adults in Europe think it's their turn to, like, raise me and get close to me, when I'm already raised and distanced.  I'm not talking about "sex."  I mean like being bossed around and their pretending they have something great waiting for me I need to consider.  (I do want to move to Germany.)

Ice Cream Roll Maker

I'm thinking of getting an ice cream roll maker, only $40.  I think it's originally Thai.  I've been watching relatively lots of videos on this, including even now in Thailand I think.  For some reason, the videos were like 10 minutes long mostly.  You mix, I think, sweetened condensed milk on this cold surface with another flavor, like chocolate, fruit, candy, etc.  You flatten it out and roll it up in a few rolls with one of the spatulas and get rolls of ice cream, like a few rolled up blankets in an ice cream cup.  I tasted some here for like $8, an Asian treat place, chocolate, and it was great, tasted good and still better healthwise.  Professionally, they might have a surface that looks a bit different and maybe bigger.  It serves a large cup of ice cream professionally.  I think you can make things like slushies, too, and can use soda.  I wonder if this is going around very popularly.  I've seen more Thai restaurants, too, as of late.

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A Strange Sensation

People are out to get good people if they make a mistake by accident or something weird happens that doesn't matter so much.

School

I signed up for 4 college courses online, but I may get in the main local community college before, not sure which I'll prefer for sure.  Financial aid covers the college online, a Baptist college based in Florida.

Here are the classes, towards an AA, at the college online:

English Composition II
College Algebra
Western Civilization II
American History II

After that, I'll take the following, probably, at the main local community college:

Trigonometry
Chemistry
Physics

Also, there's a New Student Experience class at the later college for 3 credit hours.

It looks like I can get my AA this summer.  I'll be age 34 years old.

I have to make sure it works out first, too, for financial aid and transferring credits.

It is possible I lighten and spread out the load.

Hopefully, I'll go straight into Music after this, working towards the Bahelor degree.

Update

I added my website to the side of this blog.